Am I Okay — Morgan Town

The story

A smile covers the crack, but the question keeps returning.

She smiles at the barista, tells her mama she is handling the weight, and posts something funny for a hundred likes, while she stares at the ceiling every night. Therapy on Tuesdays, journaling, running, breathing, self-help books—she keeps doing the things, but anxiety still arrives without warning, and the chorus keeps asking if surviving is enough.

Lyrics

Verse 1

I smiled at the barista, said I'm doin' great Told my mama on the phone I'm handlin' the weight Posted somethin' funny, got a hundred likes But I've been starin' at the ceilin' every single night The world keeps askin' how I am and I keep lyin' well Got a master's degree in makin' broken look like swell

Pre-Chorus

I'm not fallin' apart, I'm just not all together Feelin' like a forecast that can't predict the weather

Chorus

Am I okay? I honestly don't know Some days I'm the sunshine, some days I'm the snow Am I okay? I'm askin' me for real Behind the smile and the I'm fine spiel Am I okay? The answer changes hourly I'm survivin' but I wouldn't call it powerfully Somebody tell me, is it normal feelin' this way Am I okay? Am I okay?

Verse 2

I go to therapy on Tuesdays, journal when I can Took up runnin' but I'm runnin' with no plan I read the self-help books, I do the breathing things But anxiety still shows up without a warnin' ring I'm twenty-somethin', supposed to have it figured out But figuring it out is what the struggle's all about

Chorus

Verse 3

Maybe okay ain't a destination you arrive Maybe okay is just the act of stayin' alive Of gettin' up and showin' up and tryin' once more Even when you don't know what you're tryin' for

Bridge

So here's to everyone who's holdin' it together with tape Who's smilin' through the static, who is barely awake You're not alone in wonderin' if you've lost the way We're all just sittin' here askin', am I okay?

The sound

Vulnerable indie-country, 90 BPM, delicate acoustic guitar, soft piano, ambient synth textures, gentle bass, minimalist drums with soft kick and brushes. Intimate and confessional, the sound of a quiet room and an honest moment. Verses are whisper-close, choruses open with gentle catharsis.